Meeting the devil

Having a Psychotic episode is not what people would usually think it is: I was beginning to have the signs of psychosis long before I had an episode. Early warning signs before psychosis are: A worrisome drop in grades or job performance. Trouble thinking clearly or concentrating. Suspiciousness or uneasiness with others. A decline in

Love At First Sight

The day I met Cecil. My ex Mike get’s frisky with his daughter (who is pregnant) with my friend’s baby. She gave my friend HIV. I had to pay for a table that Cecil broke, in his exes lounge. I didn’t even ask why he was there.

A Night I Will Never Remember

A list of men, whose paths I crossed in life. As a daughter of a narcissistic mother, I have a dark history to share so that others can realise, how dangerous narcissism truly is.

I’ll Look After Her

My sister’s birthday today, so I’m dedicating a post to the golden child. We have no contact due to her abusive manner she used to manipulate me into backing off; by making my daughter phone me in tears.

What Would A Narcissist Do If You Leave Them Before They’re Ready?

Narcissistic exes by number. What would they not do after you leave them; the answer is they don’t leave you alone.

Triangulate This.

Triangulation is the narcissists way of communicating, to deny is much easier when you can not be held responsible for what you said. Gaslighting, denial, manipulation. All of it is used to warp your views on reality.

I don’t do one night stands…

I denied my daughter of a capable father. I made him believe that I would continue our relationship with him in Australia and when he landed, I told him I wanted to break up with him. I gaslighted, I manipulated, I hurt him for no reason; I felt entitled to do so. I am apologising for this.

Dear Big Sister/Scape-goat

This is a Whatsapp my brother sent to me just after I asked my mother for custody of my daughter. I still hadn’t come to terms with the entire story yet; I hadn’t found out my mother was narcissistic.

Not A Doubt In My Mind

Just a forgiven letter for the people I have to call my family. So here goes…

The Messenger

Stealing a car, not because I am a criminal; but because I needed to get away, I needed to run from the world that was sure to suck me in. It would me disappear.